Sometimes, I try too hard. We've been faced with a number of threats,
and little information on who's at the core of it all, so when we tried
to use a trump to contact Julia Barnes-Sawall's mother and were
confronted by someone taking action to block us, I pressed on against
my better judgement... but we had to know.

Now we still don't know. After my attempt I ended up with near total
amnesia for recent events... I assumed I was still touring, and was
surprized to find I wasn't. I thought I was still me, and instead found
I am Daughter of Merlin and Princess of Chaos. I thought I was still on
my own, and find I have friends in Audrey-Manette and Fendrith, and
others.

Of course, I forgot the bad parts too. I forgot what Flark did to me,
taking my memories by force because he felt I wasn't being forthright.
Of course I wasn't... It had become all to clear to me then that his
ambitions outweighed my tastes for politics, and I tried to stay out of
that. Now I just know him for the self-serving bastard he is... but I
think I managed to put him in his place, for now.

It took a walk of Corwin's Pattern to return this all to me, but not
before I got in an impromptu concert. It seems I've been busy, if not
performing, by building a loyal fan base. After the concert, I sent the
most of them to take up residence in Chaos, to be my ears... I need to
talk to Merlin about arranging a 'Princess' Own' cadre from the best of
them.

Fendrith has 'evolved' again... really no other word for it. If his
human form insists on continuing to grow, it's going to become
difficult for him to function in conventional buildings someday. He's
become very independant... I have so many bodyguards these days, one
way or another, that there's little reason for him to hang around me.
It's only a matter of time before I must let him go his own way.

And speaking of which there's Audrey-Manette. She is the only person
that I had any hint of knowing through the fog of my amnesia, and the
one most dear to me. We finally, after far too long, got to spend some
time together, staying up all hours of the night and talking as we used
to. I can tell she is starting to see things in Keliith, the dashing
and handsome man we've discovered him to be. He still annoys me, as all
I can see is a facade worn by the little brother I'd always known.
There's Flark in him... oh, not nearly so dangerous today as Flark is,
but I can see it. Keliith plays with the world and those in it like
they're another of his dangerous toys. He doesn't even know that's what
he's doing, of course, but in a nutshell it is. And with Audrey-Manette
smitten with him, I'm nervous. Or though I'd hate to think it, perhaps
I'm just jealous.